This former A+ list singer who still has the reputation and voice of one, not to mention diva antics and craziness on par with Mariah Carey did not want a certain event to happen. She does not care about what it is, but does not think she can survive being without drugs for that period of time.
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http://www.crazydaysandnights.net/2013/06/blind-item-3_15.html